wasted potential

i've been thinking a lot about the humans around me lately. specifically, my classmates.

why? because they might be the worst possible people you could put in a classroom. not doing homework, ignoring teachers, or just... not showing up at all.

so why would i care? it's not my life, right?

but then i start thinking - what happens to them in the future? and that's what gets to me the most. these people who just don't care, who only want to have fun... what if they end up homeless? working minimum wage? living paycheck to paycheck?

didn't they ever have a single thought about it?

like, do they think about the future at all? after holidays, it's going to be our final year, then exams. of course i'm prepared - i understand what this means. but there are people who just... don't care?

how?

this literally determines your future, and you're sitting there playing games on your phone, ignoring everything that matters. how can people be so careless about their own lives?

the most annoying part? most teachers still want to help them. help them? look at them - they're hopeless. i don't understand how you just can't give up on them and let them live their life like they want to. well... probably on the streets.

it's not that i care about them personally. it just annoys me.

maybe that makes me sound cold, but watching someone actively destroy their own future while you're working your ass off to build yours... it's infuriating. it's like watching someone throw away a winning lottery ticket because they can't be bothered to check the numbers.

wasted potential. that's what it is. and i hate it.

and the worst part? some of them will probably be fine anyway. life isn't always fair like that. some people coast through on luck or connections or just... existing. meanwhile, others grind every day and still struggle.

but i can't live my life based on what might happen to other people. i can't control their choices, only mine.

still doesn't make it less frustrating to watch though.

maybe this is what growing up feels like - realizing that not everyone thinks about consequences the way you do. not everyone plans ahead. not everyone cares about tomorrow when today feels more important.

maybe that's their choice to make.

doesn't mean i have to understand it.